A wonderful surprise!

Thanks Aunt Betty for the nice surprise!  I had a few pictures of Mom from My Aunt Betty Sue via mail all the way from Texas!  It is a different one than I have...the one I have was more serious...it as so nice to see my beautiful Mom again...and right near mother's day!

I spend alot of time with Mom every Sunday...at church.  That is when it is still and even amongst all the kids and the mass, I get to talk a bit to Mom.  Every Sunday is also very sad, and I try not to cry while at church.  The Sunday past I saw a nice woman who had also lost her Mom, but had a few month year old son....she also died of cancer. We both cried on Mothers day as we lit candles for our Moms.  I got her phone number, as I want to reach out to her as she seems so alone, and doesnt have many friends here.

Because of my loss of Mom, I have met some wonderful people along the way....she was such an attractor of people...so warm-hearted and disarming...I strive to be like her each day...and give a little of my heart more and more...and find peace through giving. I hope that she is smiling down on me and does not suffer when she sees me cry.  On mother's day Lars and I had a few desserts (Lars had a chocolate one for mom).  I know that would make her smile :)

Thank you so much for telling me so much and so often how much you loved me before you died...I knew what you were doing.  It hurt so much each time I saw you towards the end...and I am sorry I didnt have the strength for it not to hurt..

I have my mousepad with your picture on it and 2012...did you know? i see all the little things around from you and it makes me smile...I only hate the day when I can no longer remember your voice...if that happens...until that day, I will still repeat your voice in my head and have conversations with you as if you were near. Love you mom!

Thinking of you

Mom,

It's nearly mother's day here in England, and I am thinking of you...  I get to celebrate it twice

Love you so much....always.

Your baby girl.